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January 20, 2009
December 4, 2008
4 years.. if only things were still the same.
10:15 pm.
an hour and 45 minutes before december 05, 2008.
on december 05, 2004, ex and i decided that we would be more than just best friends. it was more of a secret at first because we didn’t know how our mutual friends would react to this. slowly, however, friends found out and it turned out that they were all okay with it.
on december 05, 2005, ex and i were living in two different parts of the world, but we were still in touch. crazier than ever.. still pretty immature. we used to joke around, and never truly acted like a couple.
on december 05, 2006, we were still in two different parts of the world, and still as close. long phone calls, texting all day long, stupid msn conversations… everything that two young lovebirds could ask for (minus the s..).
on december 05, 2007, we weren’t as close. things had started to change a little. the whole long distance relationship thing wasn’t working out after two years of only meeting during breaks. of course we met in the summer of ‘07.. spent two months together and it was all great. in fact it was perfect, and i think that’s what changed things. we had grown up, matured, and our needs had just increased.
we met in the end of december/ beginning of january (‘07/’08). spent new years eve together and what not.. things were perfect. we were happy once again.
… and then we both went off to our respective homes. things were fine until he took his best friend out on valentines day. THAT did it for me. his needs were obviously different than mine, and i respected that. i know that guys tend to ask for more physical stuff, and i, as a girl, was cool with just the feeling of having someone to talk to.
around april of ‘08, that girl’s msn status and facebook crap was always something silly and romantic about him. maybe she was just trying to piss me off. maybe he was right.. maybe he wasn’t flirting with her and it was only one-sided.. but by then i had become very close to sexy (who was also having relationship problems). when sexy told me that ex was being an ass, i listened to him. when sexy told me to end it with ex, i listened to him again. when ex called me a sell out, i completely ignored him and went off to minding my own beeswax.
did i cry? yes. did i fail the exam that i took the day after i broke up with ex? yes i did. did i imagine then that sexy and i would get this close one day? no.
do i regret breaking up with ex?
yes.
am i listening to my favorite song by a band that i used to love and now have no respect for?
yes.
is the band and/or the song somehow related to this post?
fuck yes.
